Friday, November 28, 2014

Losing A Baby

When my husband and I decided to have another baby, we were so excited and nervous. We already have two young children, but we felt that someone wanted to join our family. We decided to trust God, trust our feelings, and go ahead with having another baby. We love children, and we overjoyed with the idea of having another precious child in our home. We felt that it was the right time. So when we found out we were pregnant the end of September, we were so excited.

We made my doctor's appointment a little early since we weren't 100% sure when I was due since I never got my period back due to breastfeeding. When the day the appointment arrived, we were so excited to get to see our precious baby. However, the unexpected happened. I never thought that my doctor's appointment would end up in me leaving in tears and feeling so helpless. At my doctor's appointment, I was informed by my doctor that my pregnancy would most likely end up in a miscarriage. All she could say to me was "it is hard growing a baby" and "at least you know you can kids". I left so angry because my baby, the one I might lose, matters to me. My baby that would be number 3 matters.

I had to wait several hours to hear back on the results of the blood work to determine my hormone levels. Based on the results, my doctor said "it is a miscarriage". I was about 6.5 weeks along and I knew I was somewhere between 6 to 10 weeks along. The doctor felt that there should have been a heartbeat.She wanted me to get vaginal pills or schedule a D&C. I was horrified. From my research, there was still a possibility that I might not have a miscarriage so I believed in that. I told my doctor that I would wait two days and get my blood drawn again so I would know without a doubt what was going on. My doctor wasn't happy, but I didn't care. I already made up my mind that I would never see her again. Life is very sacred to me and I treat life with respect. I could not take something that would make my body start cramping and bleeding if my baby was still alive.

And so began the longest 2 days of my life. I rested, I prayed, and then I prayed and rested some more. I prayed for a miracle. I prayed that my precious baby girl would be saved (I felt that this baby was a girl and so far I have never been wrong about the gender of my babies). When moments of doubt entered my mind, I would go and pray to remove my unbelief. I told God that I put my trust in Him. My husband felt the same way that I did so I was grateful to have his love and support. During my days of prayer, I came across this quote by  Dieter F. Uchtdor, 1st counselor of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints, that I felt was an answer to my prayer!
I know many of you struggle with difficulties and trials. You are in my prayers. I hope that you will continue to pray as well. Your prayers are heard. Your Father in Heaven knows the desires of your heart. I cannot tell you why one individual’s prayers are answered one way while someone else’s are answered differently. But this I can tell you: the righteous desires of your hearts will bring blessings to your lives.
No matter your circumstances or trials in life, I urge you to remember who you are, where you came from, and where you are going—for the answers to those questions will truly provide confidence and direction for your life.

When the two days were up and I finally got my blood work results in, I couldn't believe what I was told. My hormone levels dropped quite a bit. I was having a miscarriage. What hurt the most was to have to tell my husband the news. He was in shock and didn't want to believe. He asked, "Could they be wrong?" I will never forget the look in his eyes when he learned the truth from my eyes. Oh how we both wished that the blood work was wrong. But deep down I knew the tests weren't wrong. This pregnancy felt different. I figured it was due to me being tired because I have two kids to take care of and more responsibilities. But now it makes sense. For the last month I had expressed concern to Broden about my feelings and the fact that I haven't had a dream about our baby. I normally have a dream about holding a baby when I am first pregnant and that is when I know if the baby is a male or female. I didn't have a dream because I wasn't going to get to hold my baby in this life.

I don't regret my two days of praying for a miracle. I don't regret believing that my baby was still alive. I know of stories where women were in my situation and their baby lived! So if you are in my situation, then don't give up. Wait a few more days because you never know if your baby will be a miracle baby!

Once again the hospital tried to persuade me to do get vaginal pills or do a D&C and I told them no. I wanted to do my miscarriage naturally. They weren't too happy, and I didn't care. I was so done with the hospital that I turned to a group of "crunchy mamas" for help and support. A midwife from the group contacted me and showed me so much support. She told me what to expect, how to manage the bleeding, and herbs and oils to use. I could contact her anytime with questions, and she would answer them as quickly as she could. I understand why so many women go to midwives now. I think I might go to a midwife when I have another baby.

I waited several days before my body officially started the miscarriage. Thankfully, I had my husband to be with me and my mom to watch the kids. When I passed the placenta and egg sac, there was so much peace in the room. A feeling of sacredness entered the room. I truly felt my little girl there telling me and Broden that everything will be okay...telling me that she is more than her little body...telling me that she will be visiting me frequently...and telling me that she will be waiting until the day that I can see her again. Broden made a simple box so we could do a do a little memorial for her and bury her in our yard in a safe place.It just felt right to do that. Oh, how I am grateful that I know that life continues beyond the grave.

During this time of loss, I got to see the love and kindness that life offers to everyone. I had people bring in meals, small gifts, and flowers. I had people text and call to see how I was doing. I was supported during the hardest experience of my life. I had to focus on those things as I went through a roller coaster of emotions. Hannah was very kind and shared this video with me. I have listened to it so many times because it truly speaks to my aching soul.

The Thanksgiving holiday was truly hard for me. It was the time that my husband and I were going to announce to our family and friends that we were expecting. Instead we had to face the hard truth that our little girl will not be joining our family right now. Instead I had to think has it really been 9 days since I lost my baby. It was hard to be so grateful for my blessings but yet be so empty and sad. I am extremely grateful to have read this article because it made me feel more normal.

I know it might be hard to know what to do or say to those who have experienced a loss of a child in any way. Here is an article that will help: pardon my grief.

My pregnancy hormones have left my body. I no longer feel nauseated which makes me curl up and cry. My pants fit better which makes me angry. I hear from family and friends who are expecting and I cry. Don't get me wrong, I am happy for their news. I would never wish a miscarriage on anyone; it is just hard to know that you have lost a precious baby and wonder why your baby couldn't stay.

I am grieving. I am devastated. My emotions change dramatically over the day. These last two weeks have been the longest two weeks of my life. Where can I turn for peace? I have turned to my God and to my Savior, Jesus Christ. I rely on them for support and understanding.  My testimony in the resurrection and in Jesus Christ keeps me afloat knowing that my little girl lives. I am using the atonement provided by my Savior, Jesus Christ, to heal. A little bit by little, I am healing. I feel a little more. I'm not as angry. I feel that I will survive.

My little girl will always be remembered. Broden and I have numbered her as one of our children. She will not be forgotten. We are healing, but there will always be a part of our hearts that will yearn for the day when we will get to see and hold her.

Little Chickadee Boutique Review (#HowlingHornGiftGuide, #stockingstuffer, #Christmasdress)

About Little Chickadee Boutique

Little Chickadee Boutique is a new Etsy shop that started up in May 2014. Tasha, the owner of Little Chickadee Boutique, wanted to share her passion for making one-of-a-kind clothes for kids. Right now you can buy skirts, dresses, ties, and bowties. Tasha is continuing to expand her shop and she is in the process of making boy pants, vests, and caps!

Here is Tasha said about her shop:
All my items are made in my smoke-free home, and 100% made by me, for you! Most of my items are ready-to-ship, meaning you pay for it, and I ship to you usually within 1-3 business days. 

I am happy to do custom orders! If you see something you love, but not in the size you need, just ask! There are some occasions where the fabric I use has been discontinued, but I will try my hardest to find something perfect for you. Custom orders generally have a turn-around time of 2-3 weeks from the time you order to the time it's ready to ship to you.

Ties and Bowties

I am blessed with two little boys. Tasha, owner of Little Chickadee Boutique, was gracious enough to send two items. Because Monkey loves the color blue, Tasha sent this blue alphabet tie. She didn't have the blue tie made yet, but was so willing to make a tie that my boy would love. I decided to get Roo the Wild Guy Bowtie because my little Roo makes everyone laugh because of all the crazy things he does with his energy. The bowtie just fits his personality so well.

The first thing that I noticed about the items was the included care tag. I love how the care instructions are included so you never have to wonder what the item is made from, if you can iron it, or how to wash it.

Before my kiddos got to see the ties, I wanted to have a close inspection of them. One thing that I instantly loved is how the velcro is positioned so it will never touch the neck! My boys hate having things itch their necks so it is a relief to know that these ties won't irritate them.

Another feature I love is how the bow is not attached to the bowtie and the tie is not attached to the band on the necktie. It is really helpful since it makes it easier to get onto my boys and it allows for adjustments to be made to make sure the perfect fit is achieved.  Here is a picture of the back of the ties. I wanted to show this so you know how nice these ties really are.

The great thing about the neck ties is that you can adjust them to be longer or shorter! All the neck ties in the boutique are designed this way so you can get the perfect fit! How cool is that!! Tasha will send any customer with the complete pdf on how to retie your tie if you need to adjust the length. Here are some pictures to show the process:

I just love how these ties look on my boys! And they love them too. And I just love how Roo looks all ready for Christmas!

My boys just couldn't sit still. At least they look cute while they have the wiggles.

So I have to include these pictures while I attempted to get some good shots to showcase these ties. All I have to say is how much respect I have for child photographers because it took me a while to get some cute photos while my kiddos ran all over the place and wanted to play on the stairs. Being at grandpa and grandma's house is just too exciting to sit still for pictures.

Roo wanted to play on the stairs. 

Monkey "showed" his face and his tractor

These ties and bowties would be perfect stocking stuffers! I know my boys would love to get these in their stockings because they are obsessed with wearing ties to church. I guess you could say that my boys want to be just like their dad which just melts my heart. (and I love any stocking stuffer that isn't full of sugar). I also love how you can contact Tasha and do custom orders so you can make sure that you get exactly what you want!

Dresses and Skirts

Little Chickadee Boutique has made me want a little girl SO much! The dresses and skirts are simply breathtaking and make me want to be a little girl again so I wear the cute clothes. Here are some of dresses and skirts that are in the Etsy shop:

                            4T/5 Parade Joys' Twirly Dress Girls dress Pink dress Sunday dress Summer Dress Peasant dress Ready to ship Whimsical dress    Size 5 Girls Fall Dress  Girls dress Fall dress Twirly dress Autumn dress Peasant dress

                        12- 18 Month Baby Circle Skirt  Baby Skirt  Twirly Skirt  Circle Skirt  Ruffled Skirt  Red Skirt  Everyday skirt  6-12 Month Mermaid Skirt Baby skirt Pink skirt Twirly skirt Summer skirt Nautical theme Ready to ship Octopus Seahorse Fishies Cotton skirt

Right now, Tasha has been working on getting Christmas dresses ready. All I can say is that these dresses show how much thought is put into them. I'm simply amazed at the designs. Here are the Christmas dresses that Tasha has created:

Girls Christmas Dress Infant Christmas Dress Toddler Christmas Dress 6-12M,12-18M, 24m/2T, 3t, 4t, 5, 6, 7, 8 Classic Christmas Vintage       Girls Christmas Dress Infant Christmas Dress Toddler Christmas Dress 6-12M, 12-18M, 24M/2t, 3t, 4t, 5, 6, 7, 8 Peasant dress Twirly dress

I just have to say that I love the red Christmas dress because my ancestors are from Scandinavia and it reminds me of my heritage. Plus, my favorite color is red! I love the idea of being able to buy a dress that is unique, made with love, and made with quality materials. I really really want a little girl now!

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Tasha, owner of Little Chickadee Boutique, has informed me that once her Facebook page reaches 100 Fans, she is going to do a giveaway to show her fans her appreciation. So go on over and show Little Chickadee Boutique some love because this is one boutique that you don't want to miss! Being a fan will allow you to stay up to date with the latest discounts and giveaways that will be going on.

Final Thoughts

I love discovering new small businesses because I love unique items. I absolutely love the necktie and bowtie from Little Chickadee Boutique. I know your little ones will love getting items from this boutique as well. So be sure to check out Little Chickadee Boutique through Facebook and through the Etsy shop page.

What is your favorite item?? Please share!

And here are some more cute pictures of my boys with their ties to entice you to go order some ties!

2014 Huge Holiday Gift Guide Giveaway

We all know how stressful the holidays can be. I love contesting because it helps my budget out because I get cool items and gift cards for free! So why buy gifts if you can win them!! This is another huge giveaway that will have 19 winners. Be sure to enter because you won't win if you don't try.

Welcome to the 2014 Holiday Gift Guide Giveaway! This event is hosted by Dixieland Reviews and Co-Hosted by Mom 'N Daughter Savings, Ottawa Mommy Club, Finger Click Saver, Susie Q-Pons and Giveaways & Michigan Saving and More and is sponsored by the various companies.

There will be a total of 19 Winners! To see a list of winners at the end of this contest, just click here. This event is open to residents of the U.S. and Canada who are 18+. Void where prohibited by law. Winners will be notified via email and will have 24 hours to respond. If no response is received, winner forfeits the prize and a new winner will be chosen. We are not responsible for late or misdirected email or email ending up in your spam folder. Please add to your safe list so the email will reach you if you win.

This event will begin at 11:59 pm eastern standard time on November 28th, 2014 and end at 11:59 pm eastern standard time on December 8th, 2014. All entries from all tools will be combined and then ran through to ensure a fair draw. Chances of winning varies depending on number of entries received. Approximate retail value of all prizes is $4440. Participating Bloggers are not responsible for shipment of prizes.

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Wednesday, November 26, 2014

Gifts For The Gang Giveaway (#GFTG1214)

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intelliglass 5 
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The Original Butter Bell® Crock
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Parenting Cards
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Personalized Family Christmas Ornament
$15.00 RV
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Kobert Waterproof Case

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Lip Balm Making Kit $24.95 rv
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Personalized Family Christmas Ornament $15.00 RV
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Food Works set of Silicone Ice Pops $9.95 RV
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Six winners will receive the gifts mention above from the sponsors. This giveaway begins on 11/25 12:00 am and ends on 12/25 at 11:59pm (times are Eastern) and is open to Continental US residents ages 18+. Winners are subject to eligibility verification and will have 48 hours to confirm before a new winner will be drawn. For any questions/concerns please EMAIL las930 at Please refer to the full terms and conditions in the Rafflecoptor Tools. None of the blogs promoting this giveaway are responsible for prize delivery.
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